Hi all!

In a few hours time will be the end of 2006.

2006 isn’t a easy year for me. Stressing over studies and website, SGEduLab.com.

Not easy, but I made it. Remember people were telling me I won’t able to make it in ‘N’ level because of my English, yet I proved to them I can do it. Remember people were telling me SGEduLab won’t works, but it still working alright.

But, personally, I still feel that I am not doing well this year. I failed to do something – interact with other people. I had been staying at home taking care of kids for years. People around my age most properly will go out for shopping and etc after school, but I didn’t. I didn’t enjoy my teenage life at all. All I do is stay at home looking after kids. During holiday, I went to work, and found that because I had stayed at home for too long, I didn’t know how to interact with other people. I don’t know how to talk to other people. I don’t know how, how to make friends with other people. I had stuck in the online social network and totally unable to handle offline connection.

This is my weakness, my biggest weakness and road block in my life. My aim – to clear this blockage to make more friends offline and explore the wonders of life. I hope, I am able to make it in 2007.

Wish everyone have a good year ahead!

Love,
Cockroach//蟑螂

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People who know me well enough will know this.

I have “Six Sense Dream”.

Meaning, I have Six Sense in the dream. Or in other words, I will dream about further. Not happen that frequently, and its totally random.

Believe it or not, sometimes I got into depression because of Six Sense Dream. I got to know someone going to pass away, I got to know someone will be in trouble in the future, but I don’t know where and when will it happen. Nor, I know how to prevent it to happen.

Few months ago, Car[Not his real name] quit Poly and went to National Service all of the sudden. Suddenly, I felt worried and lost for no reason. I am not that close to him. Until one day, I dreamed about army and someone got injured. First person come to my mind was Car. Since Car and GeckoZ are buddy since secondary school, I had been telling GeckoZ to tell Car to be careful while in Army. I got into depression because of this. I even have the urge to go for National Service.

Recently my dream had been telling me that the person who got injured is not Car. Not Car, but someone else. Glad that yesterday had confirm that that thing will not happen to him. What a relief! Wasted my energy worry about him. (Really, I had used a lot of energy on worrying for Car)

So, who is the one who got injured? I know the answer, I know who. But I am not going to say it. It shall take it as nature.

Six Sense Dream, how I wish to get rid of you.

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I have not been blogging lately. Hopefully I got more time to blog in the further. I miss those days when I have fun blogging, have fun cracking my brain for my content in blog. I really miss those days, really.

Few days ago, when I was having my dinner, my mum throw me a question.

Mum: The second floor aunty (Aunty living at second floor)ask me whether you got watch R or not.
Me: Huh? What R?
Mum: Second floor aunty ask me you got surf R website lah!
Me: Huh? What R website?
Mum: Ai yo! Like that also don’t get what I mean. The second floor aunty ask me you got surf RA website or not!
Me: Huh? RA website? What RA website?
MUM: Aunty want to know you got surf porn or not lah!
Me: Don’t know…eh.. no…Starhub blocks it.

I got stunt. I mean, why suddenly ask me this question while I having my dinner? I don’t think anyone will be so honest to their parent when it come to this topic. Anyway, I have been a good boy because I have not surf any porn website as Starhub blocks it. (But here, I do admit I watched video before)

Then I recalled one accident related to porn also.

I always went to wet market with my mum and got to know a lot of shop owner there. One day one of the aunty who own a shop at the wet market have a chat session with me and my mum.

Aunty: Oi…ah boy, when you getting girlfriend for your mum?
Me: Don’t know.
Mum: Ai ya…He always stay at home, how to get girlfriend?
Aunty (Whisper to my mum, but loud enough for me to hear it): Cannot like that say one. Nowadays teenagers everyday watch and surf from internet. Don’t see your ah boy innocent looking, he might know everything!

I swear that from that days onwards, I am really afraid of walking pass that shop that own by that aunty.

Suddenly, feel that all aunties are a bit pervert.

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