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‘Family War’

posted by cockroach//蟑螂 at Monday, May 01, 2006 10:00 PM

Tomorrow will be my English paper, yet there is so much trouble in my heart.

I and my parents are having ‘family war’.

Too many stuff happen recently, and I am busy preparing for my exams. I feel that my family don’t understand me, don’t understand what I need.

It all started today when I am revising my work and my mom came to my room.

Mom: Go to M1 shop and check can I get new phone or not. And help me see which phone is good, I want the latest phone. Can take photos, listen to music and etc.
Cockroach: But I am studying now.
Mom: Ask you to do little things also like that. Got time make website but no time to help me go down and check. Yesterday go and buy printer run so fast, now ask you to do little things also like that.

After a while…
Mom (to dad): You son, waste $100 plus on making website never discuss with us. Spend so much helping people for what? We help other people who help us. And you know what, you son follow his bad friend say June want to buy new clothes, like at home no clothes for him to wear like that. Haven’t start earning money already start spending money. Then ask him to check something say want study, got time make website no time to help me is it? (This time round, she start throwing my clothes everywhere.)

I don’t know why, my heart sink. I feel that she is not supporting me. I agree that I am in the wrong for not discussing with them of using my saving to pay for the hosting. But I just wanted to help people, did I do anything wrong?

Seri (who is not a bad friend but a very good friend with listening ears) suggest that I need a makeover, which I agree with it. I had spent a lot of time at home taking care of this house due to both parents are working. I had been taking care of the two devils for long, I need a break. I don’t have much clothes, most of them are given by other people. And some are what my dad used to wear. I just wanted to have a taste on how is it feel when I am wearing clothes that I brought myself. I didn’t ask much, I had my haircut at a house for just $2 while others went for over $10. I don’t look great while present myself in front of other people.

All I ask is a break, understanding, and give me a little bit of freedom.

I really want to shout our loud all my unhappiness. I need someone to talk to, but who? Tears starts to roll out from my eyes, I don’t want it to affect my studies. Did I do everything right in the first place? I started to ask myself again, did I make the right decision.

6 Comments:

At 5/03/2006 07:36:00 PM

You made the right decision. Perhaps your mother did not understand that you want to help others by providing notes. Try to communicate with your parents, telling them that you are already in Secondary 4, and you don't want to wear hand-me-downs, and have cheap haircuts. Maybe your mother may need some time to understand. 

Posted by todaealas

 
At 5/03/2006 08:37:00 PM

You can always talk to me!
 

Posted by JC

 
At 5/04/2006 02:09:00 PM

Cockroach,

It sucks that your mom doesn't understand, or your dad. But that is how it is. You must try not to be too affected by them. Many parents do not understand their own kids, but it does not mean that they do not love you. It just takes time. You must be strong.

By right, it is your money. You have the right to spend it how you want. I think you spent the money wisely. Don't let anyone tell you differently.

It is always difficult to find time and energy to deal with all the problems there are. So you must try to prioritise. For now, your studies are the most important - not for your parents, not for your teachers, but for yourself.

You have a lot of potential in helping other people. I have confidence in you.

Yen 

Posted by Yen Feng

 
At 5/06/2006 03:07:00 AM

todaealas 
I hope she will understand one day...

JC
Sure, I will - when I am going thorught depression again.

Yen Feng
Yes, it feel really terible when my parents don't understand what I feel. I will be strong, maybe this is the 'thunder stome period' where I will be going thourgh ups and downs. I know, one day, I will be able to see the sunshine - a big bright shiny one.

Thank you....


Thanks guys! I am feeling better. Thanks for everything, really. Your comment give me that force to continue. I belive - I made the right choice. 

Posted by cockroach

 
At 5/07/2006 01:41:00 AM

Don't be discouraged okay? It's probably due to the generation above you doesn't quite know the sense of satisfaction that you get from making web pages. Plus, you help others with the web site. Be proud of yourself okay?

My parents think making a web site is very easy by the way. They just don't get all the dynamic things. They think you just type the words that the web site is magically created. 

Posted by Mr. Dew

 
At 5/21/2006 10:38:00 PM

Mr. Dew,

hahaha...I won't be discouraged. I want it to help other people, if discouraged, how to help?

I somehow think your parents are cute. website magically created. 

Posted by cockroach

 

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